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Thursday, October 18, 2012

Sentimental, semi-mental.

I am not particularly sad right now.
However, I'm not particularly happy either.

It almost looks as if it is a facade that I'm putting up, that I am laughing and smiling as per usual.

Yet, it is also the truth.

I am not faking those emotions. When I am laughing and smiling, I am truly happy. Truly glad, truly excited, etc. But it's kinda like a... momentary thing. When the excitement dies down and the happy moments run out, I am back to the brooding self. I walk away from the crowd. I want to be alone. I want to be alone with my thoughts.

I try to occupy myself and thoughts with something else. I do, for a moment right there, and again, those happy/positive thoughts disappear.

On the other hand, I'm not filling my mind with negative nor unhappy thoughts either. They're not deadly, they're not toxic.

Sometimes, I do drive myself mental.
Perhaps, it's time to stop being so sentimental?


I don't wish to tell a lot of people about my thoughts anymore.
Some will listen, but some plainly hear.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

If only.

If only.

For the many times I've cried, broken down, and have a complete mental breakdown, if only you could caress my cheeks, cup my face in your hands and give me the "It's okay, baby, hush up" stare, I'd probably stop crying immediately.

That is, if only.

Friday, October 12, 2012


A visual compilation of Bintan trip with my course mates!
1st October - 4th October 2012
(Actually, it's mostly taken on the first day... because I'm a lazy asshole who got tired of bringing the DSLR camera afterwards)

Headed there with the rest of the DVMD peeps, with the purpose of "bonding" us together. Well, am glad to say that it has served its purpose then! :>

It was my first time overseas in more than 10 years! The last time I went overseas, was when I was 4 and the destination was Genting haha. Please hold your laughter there. Needless to say, I was terrified because I didn't know whether I've any unknown allergy/motion sickness/sea sickness (we took the ferry from SG to Bintan!), but luckily for me, everything went incredibly smoothly! So much for being a worrywart.

The camp was half educational/assignments, and half adventure & fun! Tried out a lot of height/land and sea elements such as Flying Fox, Skywalking, Kayaking and Boomnetting. I hereby conclude that I should never kayak again though. On the other hand, Flying Fox and Boomnetting was incredibly fun :B

We spent a night at Ghost Island (Pulau Hantu) for 'survival camp' purposes on one of the nights but it wasn't as scary as I thought, so meh, no exciting/horror stories to share here.

That's all for nowwwwwwwwwwwwww.
Back to assignments; editting photos, compiling/making a coffee table book, and sketches.

All due very soon and I'm determined to work hard(er) this semester :) My GPA ought to be above 3.0 this time!

(Steal any of the photos above and you shall die. But I believe all of you are angels who believes in copyright heh heh :B)


Psst, EV's new goodies/stocks just arrived in time for the next photoshoot and I'm absolutely in love with the upcoming collection! NO KIDDING OKAY. Everything is so damn yummy I can die. Think leather, daisies, aztec, studs, kitties, dip-dye, sugar skulls, crosses and more. 

Mmmmm, dayummmmmmm. I'll post up sneak peeks as soon as I can but... school is starting soon. Boohoo. :(

Oh, and if you haven't shopped at the recent collection yet... you probably should.
Everything is almost sold out! :3